Time to Think

Well, I've missed another week of work with a pulled muscle in my back, but am choosing this time to listen for God's voice in the quiet. He's so good to me & my family.

I've been reading a blog from a couple who lost both their precious children in an automobile accident last July. Their faith humbles me. Their grief reminds me of my own - so unexpected at times and quite overwhelming in its strength.

However, we have a hope that those who don't know Christ don't have. We KNOW we will see our precious loved ones again. And in our imaginings we can see them laughing, joyful, whole, in the presence of Jesus.

For to us, to be absent from the body is to be present with Jesus (2 Cor. 5:8). That's where they are now, and where we will be one day. Oh how I long for that day!!! But for now will continue to have hope in the One who sustains me day by day.

Well, another week out of work because I've been sick AGAIN!! This mess has got to go!! I must take vitamins or something to boost my immune system.

As I sit in my sickbed, I've been wondering...Why do we hesitate so much? Are we so afraid of making a mistake that we wait and wait on confirmation or some sign and end up missing out on the very thing that could be what we were created to do?

What are we so afraid of? If God is as big as I know He is, then can't He put me on the right path if I start on the wrong one? Can't He move me to where I need to be? Do I just need to begin moving in a direction and let Him guide me as I go instead of sitting here waiting and doing nothing???

I'm feeling much better today. Hopefully I will be cleared to return to work Monday. I need to go back. No work = no pay :(

I wonder how I will ever get to the point I need to be to do what I feel God is calling me to. It seems so overwhelming at times. My goal is to be somewhere in the world other than here by the time I'm 50. That gives me 8 years to get my finances in order and see the girls settled in their own places they are called to be.

Oh to be young again, knowing what I know now. I don't think I would be here but would already be on the mission field. What time has been wasted!!! But has it really been wasted? I would not be who I am today if not for the things I've gone through. It is what it is. Time to press toward the goal for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ.